Take a glance here; Love's Life

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."  - Maiyunna

Once again, I let you in
Falling so quickly, so indefensibly
It always ends up being the death of me
But once again I put my heart in your hands
And without knowing, you go behind my back

I still love you,
I always have,
And always will.
I'm no good at letting go.

My heart you hypnotize
I fall for your disguise
We always wind up on the same situation
But my heart is in the way, fogging up realization

I still want to be with you,
But you've kept me on hold.
I've been by your side for much too long.
So I thought I should move on,
I thought I could be strong.

But once you were gone,
I found it hard to even find reason.
Reason to wake up,
Reason to live,
Reason to keep breathing,
Reason to give,
This life another chance,
This world another glance,
From a different point of view,
But I still only saw you.

I don't know what it is or why
but every time you come back, you seem to have changed
Yet again it always has the same ending
I catch myself pretending.

You left me crushed, destroyed, defeated
Out of the blue you come back and repeat it
Once again' broken hearted
Separated, left departed
You give me something to live for
Than out of the grapevine
You leave my heart on the floor

You Left me there tearing, bleeding
Somewhere, hiding out there
Thoughtless, emotionless without a care, no plea
not a care in the world of
what you done to me.

I never wanted to say those things I did,
But I was tired of getting hurt.

I waited for only disappointment.

You knew it wouldn't work.

Did you like giving me false hopes?
Your words are the ropes,
That hang me high off the ground.
The choking lies that wrap around,
My throat so tightly ,
The sight unsightly .

Hanging breathlessly , Swaying lifelessly ,
Forever endlessly .

....

" I have learn that, you've got to accept the fact that life isn't a fairy tale; things aren't always happily ever after. Things like magic wishes, Prince Charming and true love doesn't happen in real life. Magic wishes come from money, Prince Charming shallow idiot with a bad haircut and overpriced clothes. And true love? Ah, true love is one-sided, Ace. You love her, she loves someone else. She loves you, you love someone else. Never quite works out does it? So you end up with some actor pretending to be your true love. Real considerate of someone to let you know reality was like that before being thrown into it. 'If you wish, it'll happen.' Well, wish in one hand and crap in the other and see which one fills up faster. " - Maiyunna

Welcome to reality.

Enjoy your stay

The Story of Life

 

 

You can give without loving, but you can never love without giving.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be...possibly your roommate, neighbour, coworker, long lost friend, or even a complete stranger, but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason.

Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count.

Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen.

Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high.

Hold your head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.

The things matter most,
if you LOVE someone tell him or her, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.

And learn a lesson in life each day that you live.
THAT’S THE STORY OF LIFE

The starter point of how it begins

 

“Let your mind starts a journey thru a strange new world. Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before. Let your soul take you where you long to be...Close your eyes let your spirit start to soar, and you'll live as you've never lived before.” - Enrich Fromm

 

I've never been so good in introducing myself, never. But, since I really need to! 

Well, it would be nice for you to call me Maiyunna. 

I'm not so-that-good in English, but I learn over time. 

So, please, ignore bad grammar, if I really do. Correct me if I'm wrong.  I'm willing to learn.

 

"Honesty is the best policy", I keep on believing in William Shakespeare quotation.

I apply honesty all the time. Why should you be fake? 

We are born imperfect, but we seek perfection to become 95.50% perfect. ( ignore me, that's just my own statistical view over perfection! aha! )

 

I do like writing, but yes, sleeping is yet still wins the ranking on my list.

I appreciate life's art. I love poetry. Don't you see how beautiful poetry is?

The metaphor.. The hidden meaning.. I find it interesting! Won't you?

Like you're playing with your mind; do the critical thinking.

Instead all of above, I'm truly passionate in beauty related stuff. 

We should take good care of ourselves, mostly apply to women.

However.. my life's principal is beauty with brain. What are the point for being dumb beauty?

We've been given life; once. Everyone are packed with beauty. 

Beauty doesn't count on the appearance. So, never blame yourself. Be grateful of yourself, some people never have the chance on living. Let's enjoy the ride of life. It's all up to you.

 

Back to the point, currently I'm studying at Unirazak college. Will pursue the very 1st year of Bachelor. 

Don't  get freak out. Let me finish my words. I have taken my Foundation course for a year since middle of the year 2010. So, I'm quite excited of being the 1st year of Bachelor only at the age of 19. I've been through quite a hardship and finally, It pays me back. :)

Now, get into my so-not-called-as-career-currently, I'm a freelance part-time model. I've been join 2 pageants before and recently I've been a bit busy with this-another-me world projects. I swear! It's tiring! But, I do it with passion, since it is my interest ever since I was 5 years old. 

Although, I only stand with 5 feet 4. I bet it is not a problem, right? 

Being a true model, you have to be 5 feet 8 at least. Slim & slender. Everything remains stereotype.

Why not trying to become a role? Since I'm Sabahan. We are blessed with beautiful nature & beauties. Majority the Sabahan are petite. So, why not showing our own beauties? Come on. Let's break the rules.

No one is perfect. 

What can we do? If we are born short, obese, shapeless? Short, thin, shapeless?

Staright, wavy, curly hair? We are born with different sizes. Just enhance what you think you're good at.

Be yourself.

Nah, it is yet.. Still a long journey of mine..

And I'd like to share with you what I've been through.

Till then.

Love,

Maiyunna

 

Obsession

" Beauty - makes sense! "

.. and I bet you know what will my next and future posts, right?